Mournday – 042224

I mourn the loss of true love – real, authentic, soul-bonding&binding, ever-lasting LOVE. We all seek it or should seek it IMHO. Maybe you realize you have it with yourself. I am not sure there because I do not feel that way myself, yet I am trying to consider how to fully include the asexual community and any adaptations of that sexual orientation, too.

I consider myself extremely fortunate and perhaps even rare to hold such a connection near and dear. I wandered lost and alone for a long time. I found my own pockets of happiness and progress along the way, but she is a catalyst for my change. I owe so much of my self-improvement and, honestly, self-advancement to having a supportive partner. She had no clue what I was doing here. Psh, I had no clue what I was doing here. Inklings, sure, but I was “blindly playing, searching around in rooms for an invisible dot.1

Y’all, I hate reality TV shows. What an oxymoron! Reality on TV?!? As if!!! Reality is out here. In the moment. Here and now. With each and every single one of us. Recorded and possibly-even scripted BS on a screen does not deserve such a title IMO. My case in point is the Golden Bachelor. 3 months – that is how long they lasted in “holy matrimony.” Holy cannoli, what a bunch of bologna! Ingesting such inane and innocuous/in-noxious in and out each week… you are zoned out and zombified on your couch, chair, floor, whatever.

Whenever, wherever did we lose out on sparking our own joy? Why do we need to waste precious half-hours to hours of our time hoping these two clowns pick each other?? My sugjestion: what if you spent that time improving yourself? What if, by putting in effort to make yourself better, you attracted all the things that you best love in and around you?

I know that the responses to this “Tarnished” Bachelor divorce announcement have been polarizing. Some support it, and some balk at it like I mostly have so far. I balk, though, because I think they are lazy. IMHO, they are not willing to put in the hard work that makes it work well. How quick were they to quip that it is irreparable? What cannot be repaired after only three effing months? The main (and only?) reason that I see detailed so far is their living situation. Here is a fun fact – despite how in love I am, and in spite of me having a soulmate, I do not live with her. There are progressive lifestyles out there nowadays that can help alleviate this sort of dissonance between two people. What works best for each of y’all? Why can you not try an approach like LAT (Living Apart Together) for some time before simply and slothfully throwing in the towel? That is what makes me so angry here – a sense of entitled laziness like they have exhausted all possible options for how to make it work. Did y’all even try any marriage counseling together? There is yet another sugjestion. I need to slow down and breathe some because this is how and why reality TV makes me so livid. IMO, it is a virtual swamp.

Switching gears entirely to lighten the mood before signing off for today, I want to wish a Happy Earth Day! Here is a fun video to watch that I loved seeing yesterday. It should probably include an epilepsy/seizure warning, though, IMHO. One final bonus sugjestion – what if we each did a little bit more for our planet that we are sharing? It does not have to be much. If even a small percentage of us start doing more, it will add up. Personally, I try to carry a bag with me now when I go out for walks. It allows me to pick up random pieces of trash when I see them. Then, it is easy enough for me to throw that bag away at the end of my outing/walk. It does not take that much extra effort from me, yet I know I am slowly making this planet prettier again. This cycle has a lot to do with (self-)love. A new song talks about cosmic love as one of the lyrics. I think that is cool; it is another take on agape IMO. I suppose, here, I am pushing for planetary love. Currently, like our bodies, it is the only one that we have. Do we really want to ruin it? I don’t. Do we need to keep destroying anything and everything around us? Let’s build it all up positively please. Let’s rediscover our health and Earth’s health. Maybe it’s wise. Maybe it’s dumb. Time will tell.

 

  1. Adapted/paraphrased from Ready Player One ↩︎